This is not okay. I am not okay.....






I woke up yesterday with the intentions of having a great week-end. Thus far I've had a crappy week, and was hoping the week-end would be better.

Well let me hand it to you straight. Nothing will ever get better in this circus I call my life. It's one stressful/tragic situation after another. Some of this I've done to myself. And no matter how hard I work to get myself out of it, I seem to just dig myself deeper and deeper.

I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Everything I say, is wrong. Everything I do, it's wrong too. I can't even feel right.

I'm tired of feeling like it's me against the world. I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to struggle. I feel like it's just time to succumb.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a TV show, and some sick fuck is just laughing his/her ass off at my downfalls and shortcomings.

Either that or I was Hitler in a previous life. B/c I don't know what I did to deserve this kind of bad karma.

So there we have it. I fucking hate my life. And I fucking feel like I can't do anything about it.

(Originally Posted on November 4, 2007 8:24pm)