I find it funny that we as people tend to see what everyone else is doing wrong, but can't see for ourselves until the waters already boiled over. At least, that's how I am.

I've spent the last several days angry at someone because he'd rather blame his problems on anyone else than himself, and he doesn't want to face his problems, but run from them. And then I go on a drunk psycho texting rampage... ugh. When will I learn? 

If it's not embarrassing enough to have to admit that I was wrong, we have mutual friends and I look like a complete bitch right now. 

I was angry. For two months (thank goodness it wasn't longer) I was lied to, strung along, and used. I'm still angry. I developed feelings for a person who dropped me like a plate of cold chopped liver for someone I would consider less than appetizing. I think I'm most angry that this happens to me all the time. One of my friends exact words upon finding this out? "What is it about you that brings out the 'ex' in every guy you meet?" Great. My friends are making the association...

I shortly went through the "why me?" phase, but right now as I put it on paper, he's really not worth my time. So why am I still thinking about him? Why am I so embarrassed at my behavior the other night? Why am I upset over some guy who chose the (someone else will have to choose an adjective for less attractive that's nicer that the one's I'd use) ex girlfriend.

I'm not ugly. By any means. I had an old guy stop me on the street about two weeks ago and tell me I was the most beautiful woman he'd seen in all his 84 years. (By far the nicest compliment I've ever received) 

I just get tired of liking guys who don't like me, and not liking the ones that do. 

I know I have other things I need to focus on. And maybe now is the best time to do that.