My mom wrote a blog about how she never wanted kids, but she married my dad and got me out of the deal, and how I was horrible, but now I'm so awesome she's glad. (my Cliff's Notes version) And that got some gears turning.
Hello, my name is Angela, and I am FAR from perfect.
There are some horrible things that if I could go back and change, I wouldn't. Those things made me who I am. They showed me I have enough inner strength to conquer challenges and become a better person for it.
But there are selfishly wretched things that I've done, and said, that I would trade anything to go back and not make those mistakes again. And every time my parents tell me how proud they are, or how much they love me, all I can think about is these massive mistakes I made. The things I've done that are so undeserving of their unconditional love. The hurtful things I said while I was angry or upset.
But being human is about emotion, and love and forgiveness. And I am so thankful and lucky that I have loving family that can look past these flaws, and forgive my being an asshole.
1 comment:
being a parent, i've decided, is a 'pay it forward' effort. you'll redeem yourself someday to the child you love (be it your own, or 'adopted' like you are to me!)
love you so very much!
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